Tired & Sick

I hate being tired and I hate being sick even more. Whenever I start feeling tired, it makes me depressed, but when I feel both, I feel horrible. Not like you can do much about it, because flu viruses just act that way. I see superheroes and sci-fi movies solve those problems every day. A flip of the switch, or pop a pill, reset the transport buffer and you're off to a better land. No more sickness; all signs of any illness are wiped away with... sometimes... literally... the wave of a magic wand. But that's not reality! Of course, everyone knows that, not that it stops any of us. We still continue to believe in stories that give us a better world. No matter the reality of situations that don't get better, people that don't get off the table after the good-looking Dr. calls a "code" and the paddles charged up. It doesn't happen! Okay, it might happen once in a codeblue moon (I snort hysterically at my funny), but most of the time, no reality is ever so full of a perfect ending... At least not in this world. Fortunately after death, the story doesn't end, or so people like myself believe. There is a happy ending! Heaven is perfect, I spend all of eternity with my Savior and every wrong against me, no matter how great I have been cured. As for the crimes against others by myself, that was taken care of and by no means by me. Thank you Jesus

Race for the Cure

Nine years after her cancer treatment, Becky is still running (or trying to, in her case, as she has arthritis) in the Susan G. Coleman race for the cure. This is held every September and though I attended the first couple of them, I still have yet to attend another. I suppose five in the morning is a bit early for me. Still, it's a wonderful race and offers people like myself who have family members and friends who have suffered from cancer (two of them from breast cancer: Sister Sharon and Becky) a chance to support others. My father passed away a couple years back from cancer and it had a profound effect on me. You always think your parents will be there, because... they always have. When one, or both, pass away, it's daunting, euphoric, lonely. this reminds me of something C. S. Lewis said; "I never knew grief felt so much like fear." and although I don't know if I have the quote exactly correct as I'm going by memory, I do recall that book, a grief observed, as being profound. Oh, she got in the LA Times article too.

I love this song by Vast. It's called "touched."

Dr Horrible, a must-see Sci-fi Musical

Lately, I've been watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer and the Angel series back to back. (One Buffy, to one angel) and now, a friend popped me on to this website that has a online movie Joss Wheadon, the producer of Buffy and Angel, directed. honestly, this is so hilarious. And moving. Interesting how stories work out that way. His stories always do. He does have the comedies and dramas, but most generally he mixes the two together quite gently. You don't have drama being drowned out by comedy or drama looking stupid because of the comedy. So, anyway. Great story. Great film.

To be Shakespeare or...

I like to write, but I feel as though my writing should be memorable artwork. So I try to write like Shakespeare; I use poetry and prose as much like sword as possible. I get philosophical, theological and sometimes ideological -- though I normally avoid the ladder. However, should I strive to write like Shakespeare or just strive to write ? I struggle with that often. Authors of today, do not write like the poets of yesterday, at least they normally do not.
And I keep thinking to myself, what if I write the next great science fiction novel? Is it possible? Do I have that talent? I sure hope so. I would like for my works be looked at as science-fiction Moby Dick stories. Herman Melville wrote the Great American novel. Moby Dick has come down generation after generation as being one of the most beautiful works of American literature. I can always remember lines from it as being so rich in depth and poetry. My favorite line: "He piled upon the whale’s white hump the sum of all the general rage and hate felt by his whole race from Adam down; and then, as if his chest had been a mortar, he burst his hot heart’s shell upon it." If anyone could write science fiction like that, to be the Masters of the past: HG Wells, Jules Vern, etc., they would be remembered. Especially that today's science fiction is so related to science and mixed with fantasy. Certainly, authors in the past have looked to the future, but nowadays so much technical information is required in the book to call it science fiction. Does that make it less poetic? Maybe. Maybe not.

Mind over Matters

So many things to do in a day, but no responsibility to do it. I do wish to change that. Writing is one avenue of my life in which I can almost be telepathic. When I watch TV shows and they have telepathy, it always seems like a cheating way to convey a feeling or an idea. Sometimes I wish it was true, though. I wish we had that power over mind just to -- make someone know; make them feel what I feel. Well, it's not going to happen anytime soon, but who knows? anyways. Until then, words are my telepathy. It's one of the reasons I don't choose to learn many other languages. It's so hard conveying what I know in my heart and mind in English. It boggles my tongue when I just tried to get it out. I might as well be slobbering all over this microphone, so learning even more languages has little appeal to me except for the beautiful sounds they make. The heart must push through no matter the method.

FREE song from The Verve

New album (Album! haha...I'm old school) from The Verve and it's FREE title track is great. You can get it on Amazon.com.

Photoshop fun

I love playing with Photoshop. it allows me a chance to do all sorts of fun things with photos including morphing and other crazy stuff. Most of the time, though I just layer images, one upon another.

Use the computer; Save the world!

With such incredible advances in computing, it's amazing that they have finally come up with a way for the average person to assist in the curing of cancer. I like to joke around with people while I'm playing my video games and say that I'm helping to cure cancer, but in essence, my computer can do that. Among many other sites, the World Community Grid lets you download a simple program that runs as a screensaver and... searches for cancer cures, global warming, etc. Honestly, I've lost a father to cancer and nearly lost my sister and my friend. Cancer, among many other diseases, is plaguing our planet. If I can do a little bit to help, why not?

Babylon 5

I have been continually watching Babylon 5 for days and days. I suppose being stuck in bed makes it easy for me to watch so many TV shows, but seriously... I'm actually getting sick of TV and video games. Never thought that would happen, but I suppose there's a first for everything.

Joan of Arcadia

I've been watching this show recently. It's called Joan of Arcadia and is quite an entertaining drama.in it, a girl named Joan is called by God to do various tasks, most of which seem meaningless to her, but which ultimately turn out to save lives. It's not a very well produced show, but it has some good acting and gives me some sort ofreason for the seemingly useless and meaningless problems I face in my day. That small frustration, no matter the event, is enough to make one wonder the point of it happening. Stubbing one's toe,forgetting ingredients at the market so you have to go back-- all lead to the question "what is the point of that happening?" Of course, to truly understand why, you would have to understand how each event that happens in our lives happens for a specific reason. If the world, designed by a perfect God, is also designed with the sciences of physics, and mathematics,

love Scarlett

Scarlett Johanssen oh so cute.