Wednesday, January 7, 2009
from my facebook blog...
People have been asking me how my life has been going and what has been getting me down. It has been a bit of trouble. With back pain, nerve pain, neck pain... (five minutes later)... and the toenail that bugs me, it is hard NOT becoming depressed. I'm stuck in bed all the time these days until I heal up and get up occasionally for about two hours segments. This is infrequent and typically happens once every couple of days. It's not the life I wished to find, far from it. But as with any sort of artistry, life is a process of discovery, not photocopying. You put in some hard work here, some lackadaisical work there and pay no attention to other areas; somewhere in the midst, colors mix and you discover yourself or watch your shape form. Let the metaphor fly any which direction you wish. At this point, I have no answers, only the life I live (now I'm paraphrasing CS Lewis).. I thank everyone for their prayers and passions they've expressed for my own life. Sometimes I think the prayers don't do any good, but then... the colors mix and something new is created. Naturally, this is not every time! Prayers are not always solved or answered. It's much like my task list in Outlook; I have so many tasks in there, but only a small portion have been satisfied. Most of which are half finished or not even started. Some tasks are in there and I have NO intention of completing them; I know you did this too, so no judging. I'm thinking God's task list looks about the same. As for my health, I seem to be getting better, though not with the jumps and strides of some super technology in a sci-fi feature. I love those movies! They solve the problems we have every day in 45 minutes. Star Trek does it all the time and to such perfection. Can Dr. McCoy do any wrong? "Bones! AIDS needs a cure!", and "Bones! We have a cancer problem over here! "Dammit Jim! I'm a doctor not a... nevermind. I'm on it."
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